Happy Saturday, everyone! It's absolutely GORGEOUS here, and I'm off this afternoon for some more "serious bonding time" (i.e. shopping, drinks, & dinner) in Northampton, MA with our own Leslee. Thank goodness for good friends & lovely drives to/from visiting them.
I hope everyone is having a restful & restorative weekend.
funny that lorraine, i have spent the day in bed with food poisoning...glad someone is having a beautiful daqy out there in the universe! so leaned against pillows feeling dorry for my kidneys but most definitely did not sit. New day tomorrow.
Thanks all for healing thoughts. I'd fill you in on the details, but believe me, it would be way too much information :)
((ruth)). Take it easy. Fluids. Cuddles. A pint of each every hour I think :) How awful ... food poisoning is so draining, be gentle with yourself.
It was a stunning day here too Lorianne - funny to imagine sharing our weather across that giant pond, but it really was breath-taking. Blue skies, gorgeous light. I took a lot of photos and everything was coated in maple syrup. I'm glad you have sunshine and friends to wrap you up today.
We took in about half our grapes. I'm overwhelmed by the quantity - probably about 200 bunches. If only I could post them ... ! Instead they'll become chutney. I have been doing "seed removing meditation" a lot today :) And will be for days to come ... !
I've been oscillating a little in mood, I think the ripples of last week are still reaching me. I am uncharacteristically nervous of being on my own. I think fear of fear is really what is underneath. Or perhaps fear of letting people know I am afraid.
Still - I feel like a real shift took place for me these last few days. I still miss my ex desperately but am realising that some of the really hard stuff in life is easier to face alone than with the wrong person present. I didn't have any visitors in hospital, I knew that I would expend energy trying to reassure them that I didn't have to spare. I need to learn to tolerate the discomfort that other people experience in relation to my existence. To stop trying to walk without leaving footprints.
I have been meditating at night ... back to the basics of breath. And listening to the sounds of the night in the woods around the house. Despite heavy painkillers I'm waking in panic a few times a night, and it is really valuable to have a routine to latch on to when that happens. Just to be able to think it's ok, I'll meditate is almost disproportionately helpful!
Hugs all, thinking of you Jean and hoping you got time to sit in the sunlight today, and Mary that you're finding some stillness midst the chaos of house-selling stuff.
Stray, when I wake tonight (which I always do) I am going to think of you and send you some healing and encouraging and non-fearful vibes. I understand that middle-of-the-night fear very well, and also exactly what you say about the "OK, I'll meditate" calming effect. Ruth - you too! This sounds so unpleasant. Please drink lots, rest, and know that you'll feel better soon.
Devon - great to hear from you! This weekend we were back in Vermont and I had a few hours fo feelign totally overwhelmed by the enormity of moving tasks still ahead of me - and we've done so much already. I'm glad some of us here can accompany each other on this stressful passage to -hopefully - new and exciting living places.
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Happy Saturday, everyone! It's absolutely GORGEOUS here, and I'm off this afternoon for some more "serious bonding time" (i.e. shopping, drinks, & dinner) in Northampton, MA with our own Leslee. Thank goodness for good friends & lovely drives to/from visiting them.
I hope everyone is having a restful & restorative weekend.
funny that lorraine, i have spent the day in bed with food poisoning...glad someone is having a beautiful daqy out there in the universe! so leaned against pillows feeling dorry for my kidneys but most definitely did not sit. New day tomorrow.
Thanks all for healing thoughts. I'd fill you in on the details, but believe me, it would be way too much information :)
((ruth)). Take it easy. Fluids. Cuddles. A pint of each every hour I think :) How awful ... food poisoning is so draining, be gentle with yourself.
It was a stunning day here too Lorianne - funny to imagine sharing our weather across that giant pond, but it really was breath-taking. Blue skies, gorgeous light. I took a lot of photos and everything was coated in maple syrup. I'm glad you have sunshine and friends to wrap you up today.
We took in about half our grapes. I'm overwhelmed by the quantity - probably about 200 bunches. If only I could post them ... ! Instead they'll become chutney. I have been doing "seed removing meditation" a lot today :) And will be for days to come ... !
I've been oscillating a little in mood, I think the ripples of last week are still reaching me. I am uncharacteristically nervous of being on my own. I think fear of fear is really what is underneath. Or perhaps fear of letting people know I am afraid.
Still - I feel like a real shift took place for me these last few days. I still miss my ex desperately but am realising that some of the really hard stuff in life is easier to face alone than with the wrong person present. I didn't have any visitors in hospital, I knew that I would expend energy trying to reassure them that I didn't have to spare. I need to learn to tolerate the discomfort that other people experience in relation to my existence. To stop trying to walk without leaving footprints.
I have been meditating at night ... back to the basics of breath. And listening to the sounds of the night in the woods around the house. Despite heavy painkillers I'm waking in panic a few times a night, and it is really valuable to have a routine to latch on to when that happens. Just to be able to think it's ok, I'll meditate is almost disproportionately helpful!
Hugs all, thinking of you Jean and hoping you got time to sit in the sunlight today, and Mary that you're finding some stillness midst the chaos of house-selling stuff.
xx
Stray, when I wake tonight (which I always do) I am going to think of you and send you some healing and encouraging and non-fearful vibes. I understand that middle-of-the-night fear very well, and also exactly what you say about the "OK, I'll meditate" calming effect. Ruth - you too! This sounds so unpleasant. Please drink lots, rest, and know that you'll feel better soon.
Devon - great to hear from you! This weekend we were back in Vermont and I had a few hours fo feelign totally overwhelmed by the enormity of moving tasks still ahead of me - and we've done so much already. I'm glad some of us here can accompany each other on this stressful passage to -hopefully - new and exciting living places.
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