Lorianne: thanks for that very helpful comment about anger and irritation in meditation. It recurred this morning and it was easier to go with it bearing in mind what you had said.
The feelgood factor isn't around much for me in sitting at the moment, aside from the satisfaction of actually doing it in spite of the unwillingness. Though I always appreciate the silence.
And I'm perversely and awkwardly glad to be doing something that isn't a pushover.
Sat today in a pool of self hatred. Everywhere my mind turned it couldn't escape some thought of self-loathing, self aggrandissement, moralistic self, self self self. I even wanted to get away from my own breath. Perhaps the only useful thing was feeling the sadness underneath.
Ruth, many hugs. Please don't beat yourself up - maybe you can move on quickly and see whatever happened as an opportunity for the next thing, or for change? I admire you for sitting with it! That takes courage.
Hello, Anonymous. Yep - that's it! And feel free to remain anonymous for a while if you want, but we are not a scary bunch and you will find a warm welcome.
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Good morning.
Lorianne: thanks for that very helpful comment about anger and irritation in meditation. It recurred this morning and it was easier to go with it bearing in mind what you had said.
The feelgood factor isn't around much for me in sitting at the moment, aside from the satisfaction of actually doing it in spite of the unwillingness. Though I always appreciate the silence.
And I'm perversely and awkwardly glad to be doing something that isn't a pushover.
Love to all, welcome back Beth.
It looks like I have really cocked up at work.
Sat today in a pool of self hatred. Everywhere my mind turned it couldn't escape some thought of self-loathing, self aggrandissement, moralistic self, self self self. I even wanted to get away from my own breath. Perhaps the only useful thing was feeling the sadness underneath.
At least I sat.
To join, does one just speak up?
Yup, you're in, Anon. Now look what you've done :-)
Hugs, Ruth. xoxo
Mary, you have my utmost sympathy regarding irritation about meditation. Ugh. More fodder for practice, I guess; it certainly keeps me busy.
(((Ruth)))
Janice, your photo at newdharmabums is absolutely fantastic. WOW!
Ruth, many hugs. Please don't beat yourself up - maybe you can move on quickly and see whatever happened as an opportunity for the next thing, or for change? I admire you for sitting with it! That takes courage.
Hello, Anonymous. Yep - that's it! And feel free to remain anonymous for a while if you want, but we are not a scary bunch and you will find a warm welcome.
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