Last night I did 5 minutes of loving kindness meditation -only feeling, no words, and for those I know, including all of you- my heart overflowing with love. Then I did the Dhrib Dhristi Lochina Karma Kriya for 15 minutes, as I have daily for 11 years. Then came back to another 5 minutes of Loving Kindness, it was so euphoric. Such democracy, too. Quibbles with whoever soothed in an ocean of love, outpouring from the heart. My daughter, who'd stormed off earlier over some photographs of hers I was uploading, came to the darkened space where I sleep and where I was meditating to hug the dog and climbed over and hugged me, saying as soon as she saw me I looked so sweet she just had to hug me. How beautiful...
Having quite a resistence to sitting right now - something about coming out of a crazy schedule and wanting to be free of constraints - ironic, huh?! Anyway, managed to pull myself away from book research by the fire with the cats and go upstairs for 20 minutes, and it was lovely.
It occurs to me that all we are really trying to talk about here is nothing!
Have just finished my evening meditation session, and sat this morning as well.
Dale: thanks for the Lama Michael story yesterday. I love it. I've never quite got to the tea making stage but it could easily happen. I feel reassured!
Hope everyone is having a good Sunday. I'm kind of cold, tired, and cross because I found out last night that the deadlines for editing my book are way closer than I thought. Ruth, your patience with J. was inspiring to me. Although I haven't completely managed to avoid feeling misused and out-of-sorts today, while trying to face a whole other range of demands and responsibilities, I've tried to keep the words inside and just stay steady; I feel much lighter now and able to try to have a good evening. Brenda, I am visualizing myself as very huggable! Love to everyone.
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Last night I did 5 minutes of loving kindness meditation -only feeling, no words, and for those I know, including all of you- my heart overflowing with love. Then I did the Dhrib Dhristi Lochina Karma Kriya for 15 minutes, as I have daily for 11 years. Then came back to another 5 minutes of Loving Kindness, it was so euphoric. Such democracy, too. Quibbles with whoever soothed in an ocean of love, outpouring from the heart. My daughter, who'd stormed off earlier over some photographs of hers I was uploading, came to the darkened space where I sleep and where I was meditating to hug the dog and climbed over and hugged me, saying as soon as she saw me I looked so sweet she just had to hug me. How beautiful...
What I meant to say was that I'm sure we are all so sweet we're huggable when we're meditating... I can just see us! (o) xo
Having quite a resistence to sitting right now - something about coming out of a crazy schedule and wanting to be free of constraints - ironic, huh?! Anyway, managed to pull myself away from book research by the fire with the cats and go upstairs for 20 minutes, and it was lovely.
It occurs to me that all we are really trying to talk about here is nothing!
Day 50. Half way. :-)
Have just finished my evening meditation session, and sat this morning as well.
Dale: thanks for the Lama Michael story yesterday. I love it. I've never quite got to the tea making stage but it could easily happen. I feel reassured!
Love to all.
Hope everyone is having a good Sunday. I'm kind of cold, tired, and cross because I found out last night that the deadlines for editing my book are way closer than I thought. Ruth, your patience with J. was inspiring to me. Although I haven't completely managed to avoid feeling misused and out-of-sorts today, while trying to face a whole other range of demands and responsibilities, I've tried to keep the words inside and just stay steady; I feel much lighter now and able to try to have a good evening. Brenda, I am visualizing myself as very huggable! Love to everyone.
{{{Beth}}}
Ack! Seems an ill reward for galloping along and keeping your deadlines through extraordinary obstacles. I don't wonder you feel ill-used!
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