I really really did not want to sit this morning. So I followed Dale's advice of a few days ago and sat with the not wanting to sit. After a while I realised my resistance had softened and I was following my breath instead.
Not a long session - 10/15 minutes perhaps. A good one though.
Thank you to all who shared yesterday. I have issues of self worth in so much of what was being talked about - once again it has made me realise that we all have our own difficulties as well as joys.
Wishing everyone a peaceful day - it's a beautiful one here in London, sunny and crisp.
Morning All - ouch too hungover to even entertain the possiblity of meditating today although maybe that will change as the day progresses ...trying not to berate myself for inconsistent practice just now (it doesn't help!)
Ruth yes I am J's ex Barbara - and would have said if I hadn't opened my mouth to respond before I thought about boundaries ... in any case I agree with you that no-one is depressed by nature ...and it can be all too easy to postpone one's own grieving ...I guess I hope it's okay for me to be here, can't immediately think of reasons why not ...but then I don't know you so do say if it's weird ...
Hello, all. I am back after not meditating for a week or so. I've had an influx of social activity that I'm not used to and while loving it I need to find some way to balance things and come back to find a place of stillness. I meditated this morning for 15-20 minutes and it felt good.
Ruth said "Leslee are you Leslee who runs yoga courses in the Dordogne?" Oh, would that I were!! No, not the same. :-) There are few who spell the name that way - perhaps she's another?
Not much sitting happening here recently … lots of walking and yoga though. I’ve managed every day to get my butt onto the cushion for about 10 minutes … that seems to be ok just now … “keeping the pot stirred” as Dale mentioned recently.
Been feeling decidedly gunky for quite a few days now. A connection with a physical sangha seems to be something I need, and I don’t have that just now. In the meanwhile, I’m deeply grateful for the collective and continued support of my friends here at 100 Days.
Re-reading from my favorite poet, W.S. Merwin, I found this:
"First, forget what time it is for an hour. Do it regularly every day ….. Forget how to count Starting with your own age, Starting with how to count backwards ….. forgetting it all until everything is continuous and whole again"
I knew him casually while living at the temple in Hawaii … he came often to have lunch with my friend and teacher, Robert Aitken. Daryl, a fellow student and aspiring writer, shook hands with him one day … later he stood with his mouth gaping open and said, “I’ll never wash this hand again.”
Sorry for going on and on, and for the name-dropping. His words have been so important to me, and sustain me through the hard times.
I sat several times yesterday to try and regain balance. Which is good, because today revealed a series of new blows, um, challenges in my current, escalating situation. Glad I had a bit of a respite.
Will try to sit some more this afternoon, since I have to suit up and be a warrior tonight.
Best wishes with whatever you're going through, Devon.
Brenda, I left you a message here yesterday at the very end of the day - hope you saw it!
I'm going to sit now. My commitment has been pretty spotty lately - ten minutes grabbed here and there - and I am trying to get back to a more regular and focussed practice.
hey barbara. How did I guess! It was the way you wrote "j" - there was a kind of knowing energy in it! yes it is kind of wierd, but not by any means in a bad way! In a totally wonderful e-way! We almost met when I was playing in edinburgh a few years back...now we have - How lovely.
So absolutely welcome, and perhaps you can tell me a little more about this on-line therapy? could we email about this? would that feel ok (ooh boundaries boundaries?) I'm ruth AT wintermane DOT com.
I found a hallway to sit tonight. Oh so nearly didn't. I am finding though that it puts me in a very open and confident place from which to perform. I am definitely just keeping the pot stirred until I get home. Two more nights and the last with hub, so that really only counts as one.
Beth, yes I just read it, and thank you. The 'Mommy wars" have many shapes and forms and I've always felt both sides of the fence or tetrahedron :) have incredibly valid things to say. As for expressing the personal, gee, I find I talk more about my life in comments on other posts than I do in my blog! It's a problem I have too... though maybe in a different sense to you (I've only just started reading you, so I don't know. btw, I am very glad the tests turned out to be for naught!)
Leslee, hey, you sound way happier! Must be a need to socialize more~ & hope you keep your social calendar filled up enough for that reason.
Hmnn, there seems to be a lot of 'pot stirring' going on! :grins broadly:
Sometimes I think of meditation as a cup of tea. And sit down and give myself that break. And it always feels wonderful. Meditation doesn't always have to be pure or perfect. Sometimes it's just a state of mind to relax into...
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I really really did not want to sit this morning. So I followed Dale's advice of a few days ago and sat with the not wanting to sit. After a while I realised my resistance had softened and I was following my breath instead.
Not a long session - 10/15 minutes perhaps. A good one though.
Thank you to all who shared yesterday. I have issues of self worth in so much of what was being talked about - once again it has made me realise that we all have our own difficulties as well as joys.
Wishing everyone a peaceful day - it's a beautiful one here in London, sunny and crisp.
Morning All - ouch too hungover to even entertain the possiblity of meditating today although maybe that will change as the day progresses ...trying not to berate myself for inconsistent practice just now (it doesn't help!)
Ruth yes I am J's ex Barbara - and would have said if I hadn't opened my mouth to respond before I thought about boundaries ... in any case I agree with you that no-one is depressed by nature ...and it can be all too easy to postpone one's own grieving ...I guess I hope it's okay for me to be here, can't immediately think of reasons why not ...but then I don't know you so do say if it's weird ...
Hello, all. I am back after not meditating for a week or so. I've had an influx of social activity that I'm not used to and while loving it I need to find some way to balance things and come back to find a place of stillness. I meditated this morning for 15-20 minutes and it felt good.
Ruth said "Leslee are you Leslee who runs yoga courses in the Dordogne?" Oh, would that I were!! No, not the same. :-) There are few who spell the name that way - perhaps she's another?
Not much sitting happening here recently … lots of walking and yoga though. I’ve managed every day to get my butt onto the cushion for about 10 minutes … that seems to be ok just now … “keeping the pot stirred” as Dale mentioned recently.
Been feeling decidedly gunky for quite a few days now. A connection with a physical sangha seems to be something I need, and I don’t have that just now. In the meanwhile, I’m deeply grateful for the collective and continued support of my friends here at 100 Days.
Re-reading from my favorite poet, W.S. Merwin, I found this:
"First, forget what time it is for an hour.
Do it regularly every day
…..
Forget how to count
Starting with your own age,
Starting with how to count backwards
…..
forgetting it all until everything
is continuous and whole again"
I knew him casually while living at the temple in Hawaii … he came often to have lunch with my friend and teacher, Robert Aitken. Daryl, a fellow student and aspiring writer, shook hands with him one day … later he stood with his mouth gaping open and said, “I’ll never wash this hand again.”
Sorry for going on and on, and for the name-dropping. His words have been so important to me, and sustain me through the hard times.
Missing you, Jean. Hope you're not ill
Janice, I agree - Merwin's written wonderful stuff.
Did not sit this morning. Trying to catch up at work after staying home with a sick child yesterday. Hope to work it in this afternoon.
I sat several times yesterday to try and regain balance. Which is good, because today revealed a series of new blows, um, challenges in my current, escalating situation. Glad I had a bit of a respite.
Will try to sit some more this afternoon, since I have to suit up and be a warrior tonight.
Best wishes with whatever you're going through, Devon.
Brenda, I left you a message here yesterday at the very end of the day - hope you saw it!
I'm going to sit now. My commitment has been pretty spotty lately - ten minutes grabbed here and there - and I am trying to get back to a more regular and focussed practice.
hey barbara. How did I guess! It was the way you wrote "j" - there was a kind of knowing energy in it! yes it is kind of wierd, but not by any means in a bad way! In a totally wonderful e-way! We almost met when I was playing in edinburgh a few years back...now we have - How lovely.
So absolutely welcome, and perhaps you can tell me a little more about this on-line therapy? could we email about this? would that feel ok (ooh boundaries boundaries?) I'm ruth AT wintermane DOT com.
I found a hallway to sit tonight. Oh so nearly didn't. I am finding though that it puts me in a very open and confident place from which to perform. I am definitely just keeping the pot stirred until I get home. Two more nights and the last with hub, so that really only counts as one.
devon hang in there, mate.
Beth, yes I just read it, and thank you. The 'Mommy wars" have many shapes and forms and I've always felt both sides of the fence or tetrahedron :) have incredibly valid things to say. As for expressing the personal, gee, I find I talk more about my life in comments on other posts than I do in my blog! It's a problem I have too... though maybe in a different sense to you (I've only just started reading you, so I don't know. btw, I am very glad the tests turned out to be for naught!)
Leslee, hey, you sound way happier! Must be a need to socialize more~ & hope you keep your social calendar filled up enough for that reason.
Hmnn, there seems to be a lot of 'pot stirring' going on! :grins broadly:
Sometimes I think of meditation as a cup of tea. And sit down and give myself that break. And it always feels wonderful. Meditation doesn't always have to be pure or perfect. Sometimes it's just a state of mind to relax into...
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