Sat ten minutes last night, and twenty this morning (Going to a party tonight, rather than to the sangha, so I reckoned I was at risk unless I sat first thing.) Thanks for being here. It helps a lot.
Oops, I see I posted on the wrong day. Here it is, on the correct day:
I did not sit yesterday. Saturdays I'm finding very hard because of schedule. Need to figure that out. Sat this morning for 15 minutes.
Dale, thanks for the encouraging words. I find this site (and all of you!) immensely helpful. I don't think I'd be doing this without it. It's that nudge of accountability and the encouragement of support from others who value this also.
Thank you all.
I'm finding I'm really quite insane-seeming inside my mind. It's stunning how like a rabid little squirrel I am, scurrying from thought to thought, from worry to worry. Meditating makes me aware of all this. The hard part is not judging it, during or after sitting. Actually, not-judging while sitting is getting easier ("Oh, I'm thinking again. Go back to breath.") It's when I'm not sitting I see how judgmental I can get. *Sigh* Snitdeve indeed.
have managed to sit both days- both travel (the hour change helped!) and first day home before celebratory wedding anniversary rose... i am actually finding that it is changing my life, and especially my relationship, enough to commit to it. Finding that having expressed the snitdeve self-congratulatory shit, (so glad you fell that too Dale) it is receding somewhat -though I could get pretty self-congratulatory about that! Had a lovely sit today and I think that in the market I got a real sense of how I can experience life and even the market differently. I would never have done this without you guys!!!!
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Sat ten minutes last night, and twenty this morning (Going to a party tonight, rather than to the sangha, so I reckoned I was at risk unless I sat first thing.) Thanks for being here. It helps a lot.
Oops, I see I posted on the wrong day. Here it is, on the correct day:
I did not sit yesterday. Saturdays I'm finding very hard because of schedule. Need to figure that out. Sat this morning for 15 minutes.
Dale, thanks for the encouraging words. I find this site (and all of you!) immensely helpful. I don't think I'd be doing this without it. It's that nudge of accountability and the encouragement of support from others who value this also.
Thank you all.
I'm finding I'm really quite insane-seeming inside my mind. It's stunning how like a rabid little squirrel I am, scurrying from thought to thought, from worry to worry. Meditating makes me aware of all this. The hard part is not judging it, during or after sitting. Actually, not-judging while sitting is getting easier ("Oh, I'm thinking again. Go back to breath.") It's when I'm not sitting I see how judgmental I can get. *Sigh* Snitdeve indeed.
:-)
Me too. I had no idea what a mess it was in there, until I started sitting.
have managed to sit both days- both travel (the hour change helped!) and first day home before celebratory wedding anniversary rose... i am actually finding that it is changing my life, and especially my relationship, enough to commit to it. Finding that having expressed the snitdeve self-congratulatory shit, (so glad you fell that too Dale) it is receding somewhat -though I could get pretty self-congratulatory about that! Had a lovely sit today and I think that in the market I got a real sense of how I can experience life and even the market differently. I would never have done this without you guys!!!!
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