Sorry (said she of "urcaqq") - I may have started it!
Did a 20-minute walking/sitting meditation yesterday which had some really good moments in it. Today I am feeling physically quite crummy - recovering well from the ulcer but the medication and what feels like an incipient cold are combining to make me feel headachy, light-headed, fatigued. Patience for longterm illness is something I simply don't have, so that is what I'm practicing with right now. I also find myself really distressed by certain aspects of the U.S. now that we are traveling back and forth so much, and this becomes like a constant irritating and saddening noise. But as I think I told somebody else here recently - it's all "grist for the mill", or as Shunryu Suzuki reminds us, "every weed is a treasure." Do we EVER learn that lesson?
So -- empathy for everyone who has been sharing their recent grumpiness/difficulties.
I just sat for an indeterminate amount of time, probably about 5 or 10 minutes. It felt good "just" to sit rather than worrying about the time: long enough to feel centered but not long enough to get sleepy.
I also took the dog for a long-ish, leisurely walk along the river: the first time we've been river-walking since the floods. The river's high, wide, and muddy, but the trail's intact. It felt good to see the same old woods still standing (albeit with standing water) after all the recent excitement.
There's a metaphor in there somewhere, I'm sure. :-)
John I should try the radio thing!!! sounds right up my noise intoletant street. boo I didn't sit today except for on a long train ride and for a six hour live recording session. It felt enough in a day but I missed the 50th birthday (even tho its only my quarter century)so happy birthday y'all. Knackeroo so to bed. Tomorrow is a new day.
well, i madeup for it before anyone could get a harsh word in edgeways..;typical. i sat 15 minutes in my remarkably calm (thank God)suite in grenoble. really got in touch with the fear of never drawing another breath and thus the miraculousness of each when it comes. Then I got quite choked up. Some difficult personal things going on in the orchestra, and because of this practice I'm beginning to see my controlling part in them without blaming or hating myself. Its a very gruelling schedule, and all live on Detsche Gramaphon so I think this is really gonna help. Thanks you guys.
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Day fifty :-)
John (the other one) has a lovely quote today:
Why do we sit?
We sit to settle the self on the self and let the flower of our life force bloom.
Dainin Katagiri Roshi
Today's word verification: UFRAT
50! We're half-way to a new habit?
I like that quote, Jean. Who's the "other John" ?
Today's word verification:
Iqxeom, n. -- a self-evident or universally recognized truth that many highly intelligent individuals do not spell well.
Sorry, the other John who has contributed here: http://myzenlife.com/
ppydely: oh dear, I wish we hadn't started this...
Sorry (said she of "urcaqq") - I may have started it!
Did a 20-minute walking/sitting meditation yesterday which had some really good moments in it. Today I am feeling physically quite crummy - recovering well from the ulcer but the medication and what feels like an incipient cold are combining to make me feel headachy, light-headed, fatigued. Patience for longterm illness is something I simply don't have, so that is what I'm practicing with right now. I also find myself really distressed by certain aspects of the U.S. now that we are traveling back and forth so much, and this becomes like a constant irritating and saddening noise. But as I think I told somebody else here recently - it's all "grist for the mill", or as Shunryu Suzuki reminds us, "every weed is a treasure." Do we EVER learn that lesson?
So -- empathy for everyone who has been sharing their recent grumpiness/difficulties.
Sat quietly this morning. Did not attempt to strain to meditate but tried to stay focussed and also prayed. 10 minutes.
Glad you're all still along for the ride.
I just sat for an indeterminate amount of time, probably about 5 or 10 minutes. It felt good "just" to sit rather than worrying about the time: long enough to feel centered but not long enough to get sleepy.
I also took the dog for a long-ish, leisurely walk along the river: the first time we've been river-walking since the floods. The river's high, wide, and muddy, but the trail's intact. It felt good to see the same old woods still standing (albeit with standing water) after all the recent excitement.
There's a metaphor in there somewhere, I'm sure. :-)
John I should try the radio thing!!! sounds right up my noise intoletant street.
boo I didn't sit today except for on a long train ride and for a six hour live recording session. It felt enough in a day but I missed the 50th birthday (even tho its only my quarter century)so happy birthday y'all. Knackeroo so to bed. Tomorrow is a new day.
well, i madeup for it before anyone could get a harsh word in edgeways..;typical.
i sat 15 minutes in my remarkably calm (thank God)suite in grenoble. really got in touch with the fear of never drawing another breath and thus the miraculousness of each when it comes. Then I got quite choked up.
Some difficult personal things going on in the orchestra, and because of this practice I'm beginning to see my controlling part in them without blaming or hating myself. Its a very gruelling schedule, and all live on Detsche Gramaphon so I think this is really gonna help. Thanks you guys.
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