sat thismorning and it set me up for the day. realising I have a tendency, as soon as I experience anything like stillness of mind, I grasp it and start becoming very self congratulatory and ego inflated....ugh!
:-) Yeah, me too. One reason why it's important to keep a routine of meditation; when the stillness is a singular event, it's almost impossible not to grab onto it like that.
Sigh. I have to repair my commitment again. Sat last night, but Thursday I had another snitdeve -- didn't sit at all.
Mary & Moose & Ruth, I think it's terrific that you've kept on sitting when you've got so much to deal with! Really has helped me to pick myself back up. Thank you.
I've been good about it this week, but didn't sit today - out of sorts, moody, bitchy until mid-afternoon. Which is exactly why I ought to do it. Maybe I can squeeze in a few minutes between now and bedtime; you all inspire me.
Hi all. Sat on Saturday a.m. Another restless session. I am irritated and concerned about some (relatively) small things happening with me, and that is having a larger impact that I would wish on the quality of my meditation practice. Plus, still feel physically run down.
Really none of things I am worrying about matter that much. But it doesn't stop the busy brain chewing them over.
Ruth: I know just what you mean. Stillness of mind is so foreign I overreact when it happens.
I did not sit yesterday. Saturdays I'm finding very hard because of schedule. Need to figure that out. Sat this morning for 15 minutes.
Dale, thanks for the encouraging words. I find this site (and all of you!) immensely helpful. I don't think I'd be doing this without it. It's that nudge of accountability and the encouragement of support from others who value this also.
Thank you all.
I'm finding I'm really quite insane-seeming inside my mind. It's stunning how like a rabid little squirrel I am, scurrying from thought to thought, from worry to worry. Meditating makes me aware of all this. The hard part is not judging it, during or after sitting. Actually, not-judging while sitting is getting easier ("Oh, I'm thinking again. Go back to breath.") It's when I'm not sitting I see how judgmental I can get. *Sigh* Snitdeve indeed.
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sat thismorning and it set me up for the day. realising I have a tendency, as soon as I experience anything like stillness of mind, I grasp it and start becoming very self congratulatory and ego inflated....ugh!
:-) Yeah, me too. One reason why it's important to keep a routine of meditation; when the stillness is a singular event, it's almost impossible not to grab onto it like that.
Sigh. I have to repair my commitment again. Sat last night, but Thursday I had another snitdeve -- didn't sit at all.
Mary & Moose & Ruth, I think it's terrific that you've kept on sitting when you've got so much to deal with! Really has helped me to pick myself back up. Thank you.
I've been good about it this week, but didn't sit today - out of sorts, moody, bitchy until mid-afternoon. Which is exactly why I ought to do it. Maybe I can squeeze in a few minutes between now and bedtime; you all inspire me.
Hi all. Sat on Saturday a.m. Another restless session. I am irritated and concerned about some (relatively) small things happening with me, and that is having a larger impact that I would wish on the quality of my meditation practice. Plus, still feel physically run down.
Really none of things I am worrying about matter that much. But it doesn't stop the busy brain chewing them over.
Ruth: I know just what you mean. Stillness of mind is so foreign I overreact when it happens.
I did not sit yesterday. Saturdays I'm finding very hard because of schedule. Need to figure that out. Sat this morning for 15 minutes.
Dale, thanks for the encouraging words. I find this site (and all of you!) immensely helpful. I don't think I'd be doing this without it. It's that nudge of accountability and the encouragement of support from others who value this also.
Thank you all.
I'm finding I'm really quite insane-seeming inside my mind. It's stunning how like a rabid little squirrel I am, scurrying from thought to thought, from worry to worry. Meditating makes me aware of all this. The hard part is not judging it, during or after sitting. Actually, not-judging while sitting is getting easier ("Oh, I'm thinking again. Go back to breath.") It's when I'm not sitting I see how judgmental I can get. *Sigh* Snitdeve indeed.
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