Lorianne, get well soon. Ruth, ouch, ouch, ouch - I hope there are people there to give you cuddles.
For both ... may I recommend my latest discovery - chicken noodle soup with mashed potatoes on the side. Ideally the soup should be home made by someone with yiddish credentials, but out of a packet will do. You dip the mashed potatoes into the soup. It's fab. The first thing to go when I'm ill or anxious is my ability to eat ... but this is just easy and comforting and childish enough to get by on :)
Major attack of self-itis at the moment. It's hard to recognise that ego is the problem when all the thoughts are negative ... but it's still the core issue. Constant running unhelpful commentary in my mind - my inner narrator has definitely got it in for me at the moment, but recognising that the biggest problem is that it's still all me stuff is helpful, if agony. Hard not to compound it by chastising myself for being so bloody wrapped up in self-centered fear ... the poetic irony of obsessing about my self-obsession.
Hmmm, yes, mashed potatoes. Is there any way that they're not wonderful, and wonderfully comforting.
Wednesday is my campus meditation group, so I'll be sitting just before you guys, from 12:15 - 12:45 rather than 1pm EST. I will, though, make a point to walk home in a particularly mindful fashion while the rest of you are presumably sitting.
Hugs to all, and extra hugs to everyone in particular need: Ruth, Stray, & others I'm forgetting...?
Stray, yes, self-denigration is just as much a matter of ego as selfishness is -- making a special case of yourself. There's not much more egocentric than thinking "of all sentient beings I'm uniquely undeserving of compassion and uniquely devoid of buddha-nature & basic goodness." Which, I'm afraid, I think a lot.
Looking forward to sitting with you all on Wednesday! (Or Thursday, for our East-Asian & Australian folks -- 3:00 am Japan & Korea and 4:00 am Queensland, I think?)
yes, I'm in for 5pm Jean. Great idea - thinking of Lorianne in the dorm room :)
Yes, Dale, ouch, you're spot on there. It is totally ridiculous to feel that the world can have such great value in it except for my special and different existence which is pointless and destructive etc etc ...
It's not something I would wish for others, but it's nice to know I'm not a unique case!
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Wow...day 100 is creeping up! Where did the past 97 days go?!?
Are we planning to do a group-sit on Wednesday?
Lorianne, hope you're feeling a bit better.
Hugs to everyone.
I am suggesting that we all try to sit at 6 pm GMT on Wednesday 1 Nov (Day One Hundred).
GMT 6 pm
Continental Europe 7 pm
US/Canada Eastern 1 pm
Canada Atlantic 2 pm
US Mountain 11 am
US Pacific 10 am
There is a user-friendly time-zone converter here: http://tinyurl.com/3k1l
Does that sound reasonable? If not, please make another suggestion.
Lorianne, wishing you better.
Jean, fine with me. Thanks for doing this ....
good time for me, thanks Jean.
Lorianne, get well soon. Ruth, ouch, ouch, ouch - I hope there are people there to give you cuddles.
For both ... may I recommend my latest discovery - chicken noodle soup with mashed potatoes on the side. Ideally the soup should be home made by someone with yiddish credentials, but out of a packet will do. You dip the mashed potatoes into the soup. It's fab. The first thing to go when I'm ill or anxious is my ability to eat ... but this is just easy and comforting and childish enough to get by on :)
Major attack of self-itis at the moment. It's hard to recognise that ego is the problem when all the thoughts are negative ... but it's still the core issue. Constant running unhelpful commentary in my mind - my inner narrator has definitely got it in for me at the moment, but recognising that the biggest problem is that it's still all me stuff is helpful, if agony. Hard not to compound it by chastising myself for being so bloody wrapped up in self-centered fear ... the poetic irony of obsessing about my self-obsession.
Hugs to all, xx
Hmmm, yes, mashed potatoes. Is there any way that they're not wonderful, and wonderfully comforting.
Wednesday is my campus meditation group, so I'll be sitting just before you guys, from 12:15 - 12:45 rather than 1pm EST. I will, though, make a point to walk home in a particularly mindful fashion while the rest of you are presumably sitting.
Hugs to all, and extra hugs to everyone in particular need: Ruth, Stray, & others I'm forgetting...?
Well shall we make this an hour earlier, then, and join Lorianne's meditation group? - I like the idea of that.
That would be:
US Pacific 9 am
US Mountain 10 am
US/Canada Eastern 12.00 noon
Canada Atlantic 1 pm
GMT 5 pm
Continental Europe 6 pm
Views by end of today, please.
Thanks Jean! Works great for me.
Stray, yes, self-denigration is just as much a matter of ego as selfishness is -- making a special case of yourself. There's not much more egocentric than thinking "of all sentient beings I'm uniquely undeserving of compassion and uniquely devoid of buddha-nature & basic goodness." Which, I'm afraid, I think a lot.
Looking forward to sitting with you all on Wednesday! (Or Thursday, for our East-Asian & Australian folks -- 3:00 am Japan & Korea and 4:00 am Queensland, I think?)
Oh, wow...you don't have to switch times just for me, but the other folks in the group might think it's cool if you did.
I'll still make a point of walking mindfully home in case anyone is sitting at the original time.
10 am US Mountain works for me.
yes, I'm in for 5pm Jean. Great idea - thinking of Lorianne in the dorm room :)
Yes, Dale, ouch, you're spot on there. It is totally ridiculous to feel that the world can have such great value in it except for my special and different existence which is pointless and destructive etc etc ...
It's not something I would wish for others, but it's nice to know I'm not a unique case!
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