Sunday, July 02, 2006

Day Seventy-Nine

-79-

3 Comments:

Blogger Jean said...

Just read what Dale wrote yesterday. This is EXACTLY what I have felt, sharing the daily ups and downs of blog-friends, in this group and elsewhere - how hard all our lives are, although, indeed, these are by and large good lives of material comfort and no more than average portion of conflict, illness, death. And, yes, I have thought too that I know more about the day-to-day fear and suffering of many of you than I do about most of the people around me every day. Quite a thought. No wonder we're all so tired and stressed, when we mostly go around putting on this face of feeling absolutely fine all the time. It might release a huge amount of energy and spirit with which to meet life's difficulties if we didn't feel we had to do this. And it will take a revolution.

Just arrived back in London after spending the first part of the weekend with a dear friend, very dear and lovely. But, she rushes around all the time and never stops, although she has now retired from full-time paid work.

I cannot do it - neither the hyperactivity nor maintaining the constant facade. I never could. I'm so glad I eventually found a way, an aspiration, to something different - not necessarily always actually less effort or activity (I aspire to less, but the reality inevitably varies), but return to stillness as the' default'.

Beth, I too now face prioritising the big clearout of my home so that I can sell it. Have been putting it off for a very long time, and can do so no longer. A really big, daunting, depressing task. I will think of you and J doing the same. I've been thinking, on the train from Cambridge to London this morning, after seeing an exhibition yesterday, that something I might do is to make notes, cull images, bits of books and documents, as I sift through all the stuff and get rid of most of it, and try to make some kind of artwork/collage of the memories and the moving on. It might really help to have a subsidiary aim, a creative dimension, to what feels like an overwhelming task.

Mary, what you described yesterday is exactly what I have found it so helpful that my recent meditation classes have made me focus on. It seems such a simple thing to focus on the physical feeling. But when you live mostly in your head, it's actually an enormous thing that can lead to big changes.

10:40 AM  
Blogger wrangler steve said...

DAY 79 is day one for me...thank you for all one hundred....

11:00 AM  
Blogger Brenda Clews said...

Chasgun, welcome! You're always welcome.

I'm on the cusp, truly. Things could fall either way. It's like holding a spell of deep mystery and magic, and silence in such moments is best.

Thank you all for your beautiful thoughts...

Each of you, in your lives all over the planet, your precious selves, are in my thoughts and prayers and meditations.

*hugs xo

3:49 PM  

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