sitting today with the discomfort of cystitis, so observing the aches and twinges, and it was interesting how it is not they that really hurt, but the fear of dying, of whatever, and then the judgement of pain being wrong, bad, unhealthy, then the thoughts about it being because i drink too many cups of coffee/glasses of wine etc...!
Something here about the values that we place on things? ...I don't mean how much we value one thing over another (although that is part of the whole system); I am more focussed on how easy it is to place negative value on the kind of things you are talking about,Ruth ... without knowing or examining where or what those judgements come from or why we are so susceptible to them ...
I've been managing to meditate every day for at least 10 minutes, more usually 20 and on several days have managed to meditate twice. Should be like a dog with two tails then but in combination with other things that are happening it is making me feel as if everything has been (or is about to be) thrown high in the air ...and I realise that I don't even know where to begin. Partly because just now I feel as if I have less presence and potential for self determination than the average two year old; and partly because I need to know how to get it right ...Rats - I thought it would make me feel better too ...:(
In the long run it'll probably make you feel better, I think, Barbara, but in the short run it's often destabilizing and disorienting. I'm sure you've seen those sort of short-term effects from therapy. Jolts things loose. Opens up questions. Makes you aware of doubts and discontents that you had forgotten you had, because you'd just gotten used to them.
{{{Ruth}}} -- that's been my experience with most pains and discomforts. What really distresses me is my thoughts about them -- worrying about the future and blaming myself about the past.
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sitting today with the discomfort of cystitis, so observing the aches and twinges, and it was interesting how it is not they that really hurt, but the fear of dying, of whatever, and then the judgement of pain being wrong, bad, unhealthy, then the thoughts about it being because i drink too many cups of coffee/glasses of wine etc...!
Something here about the values that we place on things? ...I don't mean how much we value one thing over another (although that is part of the whole system); I am more focussed on how easy it is to place negative value on the kind of things you are talking about,Ruth ... without knowing or examining where or what those judgements come from or why we are so susceptible to them ...
I've been managing to meditate every day for at least 10 minutes, more usually 20 and on several days have managed to meditate twice. Should be like a dog with two tails then but in combination with other things that are happening it is making me feel as if everything has been (or is about to be) thrown high in the air ...and I realise that I don't even know where to begin. Partly because just now I feel as if I have less presence and potential for self determination than the average two year old; and partly because I need to know how to get it right ...Rats - I thought it would make me feel better too ...:(
In the long run it'll probably make you feel better, I think, Barbara, but in the short run it's often destabilizing and disorienting. I'm sure you've seen those sort of short-term effects from therapy. Jolts things loose. Opens up questions. Makes you aware of doubts and discontents that you had forgotten you had, because you'd just gotten used to them.
{{{Ruth}}} -- that's been my experience with most pains and discomforts. What really distresses me is my thoughts about them -- worrying about the future and blaming myself about the past.
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