So today I am giving thanks. I sat for a few minutes meditating on a pumpkin, then back to the breath while the P'kin pie cooked (so a few anxious thoughts about burning and curdling) and woken by the cat who I had accidentally locked in and was desperate for a pee. Very seasonal.
Feeling full of gratitude. Finding that, thought the sittings themselves do not feel tremendously rewarding, my runs in the morning are as a result. I am present with nature and my body on them whilst before my mind would be running anywhere but.
I'm finding it hard this week to get up in time to sit first thing in the morning, as not-at-all-serious illness seems to have left me craving huge amounts of sleep. So I'm sitting in the evening at present, and this evening I will sit and be thankful.
Realising how valuable it has been to be present recently with depression, tiredness, minor illness. Perhaps much more valuable even than being present in good times. It feels like something of an undramatic turning point - and the more believable for being undramatic...
No sign of Thanksgiving trappings where I am - at least one of you would love it :-)
Well I am thankful to Dale for nagging me yesterday because I went and had a short meditation as a result (15 minutes)! And I sat this morning as well. It was really a silent temper tantrum I think.
Like others, I am finding life (or rather my reaction to things as they are) difficult at the moment, and goodness knows compared to many I am very lucky. Being present to, yet not engulfed by, depression is a challenge for me. I remind myself that everything passes ....
Wishing both the Americans and Europeans here (and anyone else who visits) a happy Thanksgiving.
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So today I am giving thanks. I sat for a few minutes meditating on a pumpkin, then back to the breath while the P'kin pie cooked (so a few anxious thoughts about burning and curdling) and woken by the cat who I had accidentally locked in and was desperate for a pee. Very seasonal.
Feeling full of gratitude. Finding that, thought the sittings themselves do not feel tremendously rewarding, my runs in the morning are as a result. I am present with nature and my body on them whilst before my mind would be running anywhere but.
I'm finding it hard this week to get up in time to sit first thing in the morning, as not-at-all-serious illness seems to have left me craving huge amounts of sleep. So I'm sitting in the evening at present, and this evening I will sit and be thankful.
Realising how valuable it has been to be present recently with depression, tiredness, minor illness. Perhaps much more valuable even than being present in good times. It feels like something of an undramatic turning point - and the more believable for being undramatic...
No sign of Thanksgiving trappings where I am - at least one of you would love it :-)
Well I am thankful to Dale for nagging me yesterday because I went and had a short meditation as a result (15 minutes)! And I sat this morning as well. It was really a silent temper tantrum I think.
Like others, I am finding life (or rather my reaction to things as they are) difficult at the moment, and goodness knows compared to many I am very lucky. Being present to, yet not engulfed by, depression is a challenge for me. I remind myself that everything passes ....
Wishing both the Americans and Europeans here (and anyone else who visits) a happy Thanksgiving.
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