we had a mixed time over the holidays, really going into feeling the lack of children in our lives for the first time; acknowledging that perhaps 'us' just isn't enough. Now we are financially and artistically so much more secure than ever before, and over our mourning (one lost baby and 3 failed IVF's), it feels like we are finally ready to share. We have reopened the discussion about adoption very gently but at our age it is a big question as we would not be able to have a baby but rather only a child with what might very well be already a painful history.
I feel a bit of a fraud as I seem to be doing writing practice rather than meditation practice (with a wonderful new fountain pen santa bought me) every morning. However I just read through the posts and wanted to send big love to everyone especially Stray - how ghastly - and to say that Beth I have been thinking of you as you spent your first Christmas without your mother and taking care of your father. Your journey has been such a huge part of so many of ours this year I think, so a very special wish for healing for you. I will be back. Actually I am still here, but in strange ways! I wish you all a very joyous 2007 as they say here 'plein de bonnes choses!'xxxxxxxxxx
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hello from me in Provence.
we had a mixed time over the holidays, really going into feeling the lack of children in our lives for the first time; acknowledging that perhaps 'us' just isn't enough. Now we are financially and artistically so much more secure than ever before, and over our mourning (one lost baby and 3 failed IVF's), it feels like we are finally ready to share. We have reopened the discussion about adoption very gently but at our age it is a big question as we would not be able to have a baby but rather only a child with what might very well be already a painful history.
I feel a bit of a fraud as I seem to be doing writing practice rather than meditation practice (with a wonderful new fountain pen santa bought me) every morning. However I just read through the posts and wanted to send big love to everyone especially Stray - how ghastly - and to say that Beth I have been thinking of you as you spent your first Christmas without your mother and taking care of your father. Your journey has been such a huge part of so many of ours this year I think, so a very special wish for healing for you. I will be back. Actually I am still here, but in strange ways! I wish you all a very joyous 2007 as they say here 'plein de bonnes choses!'xxxxxxxxxx
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