My friend Liz is having an operation today. Please hold her in your practice.
Brenda, so glad you've found a solution, at least for now, and that your brother has been helpful. Hope a larger and affordable place is just around the corner. Lots of love.
Thank you Jean, and Devon. And your friend Liz is in the healing stream of my meditation, I hope it goes well for her.
In a few hours I have an interview at the College of Midwives for a reception/admin position for a month or so. I never get admin jobs that I apply for - perhaps too educated and, you know, publications, artshows, poetry readings, conferences - I don't hide it on my resume, tried that once and it backfired. I perhaps seem ill-fitting to admin jobs to interviewers. Tutoring or editing (I edited College texts for 10 years, & 3 years of tutoring at a university writing centre as a graduate student), that's different. But a lot harder, more work.
Anyway, I hope I get this one because my last unfinished thesis was/is a compendium of works on the maternal body - art, poetry, theory, DVD performance pieces - that's stalled. I had two beautiful homebirths before midwifery was legalized here. Being with these beautiful women - midwives tend to be very special - and pregnancy again might 'jump start' me back into finishing that piece of work.
If I go on way too much, please let me know!
So, iron the black linen suit, tie the hair back, print out the resume, and perhaps bring a poster of my birth paintings...
The Birth Poster as a gift! Ooops, it sounded so, um, sad... It was like taking a portfolio of my artwork to apply for a job painting Merry-Go-Round horses in my late teens... Midwives love this stuff, just a small gift for them.
Jean, I hope your friend's operation goes well ...Brenda - good luck with the interview ...
I've been thinking over the stuff about anger and negative emotions ...not sure exactly but I'm wondering about when anger is negative and when it isn't - stuff like that... I'm trying to practice being more accepting of the weather but it is very hard when everywhere but this narrow strip of north sea coast is basking in heatwaves and storms ...here we have a sort of steamy fog - chill and sweaty that has been lying to some degree or other for 4 or 5 days ...In paying attention I have discovered that some of the struggle I am having is related to feeling that the weather is somehow a comment on me, as if better people are luckier in terms of weather (and no I haven't been drinking!! ...yet). It's only when I articulate these sorts of thoughts to myself that I really notice how bonkers I can be ...more grist for the meditation and for my therapist I guess ...
Thinking of you all in your different places and holding you in my thoughts ...
Brenda, ditto on midwives. Like hospice people -- being on either of the ends of life a lot can't help but make you aware of how mysteriously we come and go.
Barbara, re anger, I think it's hopeless to talk about it without breaking it down into smaller parts. There are many phases and components of anger. Some of them are precious, and you'd be an idiot to throw them away. Some are just plain poisonous, to us and everyone around us, and the sooner we're done with them the better.
Eastern "psychology" breaks these things down very elaborately and makes it easy to talk about them. Western psychology seems to me very crude, still (of course I'm twenty-five years out of date) -- pretty clueless about the fine machinery of things like anger or grief. Treats them as single huge lumps -- the perception, the physical reactions in response to that, the ideation in response to both, the spin of imputations and fantasies that arise in response to the ideation, and the actions of body and speech in response to the imputations and fantasies -- it's all one big thing, to Westerners. And so they say things like anger's good, or anger's bad, which seem equally true & false & useless statements, to me :-)
Hmm. My comment saying I'll hold Liz in my practice disappeared? Anyway, I will.
Sorry I've fallen down with the monthly sits -- my life is a bit disordered these days, & I'm dropping some of the balls I'm supposed to keep in the air :-) I'd vote for just waiting for the 100th day sit, at this point.
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My friend Liz is having an operation today. Please hold her in your practice.
Brenda, so glad you've found a solution, at least for now, and that your brother has been helpful. Hope a larger and affordable place is just around the corner. Lots of love.
Thank you Jean, and Devon. And your friend Liz is in the healing stream of my meditation, I hope it goes well for her.
In a few hours I have an interview at the College of Midwives for a reception/admin position for a month or so. I never get admin jobs that I apply for - perhaps too educated and, you know, publications, artshows, poetry readings, conferences - I don't hide it on my resume, tried that once and it backfired. I perhaps seem ill-fitting to admin jobs to interviewers. Tutoring or editing (I edited College texts for 10 years, & 3 years of tutoring at a university writing centre as a graduate student), that's different. But a lot harder, more work.
Anyway, I hope I get this one because my last unfinished thesis was/is a compendium of works on the maternal body - art, poetry, theory, DVD performance pieces - that's stalled. I had two beautiful homebirths before midwifery was legalized here. Being with these beautiful women - midwives tend to be very special - and pregnancy again might 'jump start' me back into finishing that piece of work.
If I go on way too much, please let me know!
So, iron the black linen suit, tie the hair back, print out the resume, and perhaps bring a poster of my birth paintings...
*hugs all, xo
The Birth Poster as a gift! Ooops, it sounded so, um, sad... It was like taking a portfolio of my artwork to apply for a job painting Merry-Go-Round horses in my late teens... Midwives love this stuff, just a small gift for them.
Jean, I hope your friend's operation goes well ...Brenda - good luck with the interview ...
I've been thinking over the stuff about anger and negative emotions ...not sure exactly but I'm wondering about when anger is negative and when it isn't - stuff like that... I'm trying to practice being more accepting of the weather but it is very hard when everywhere but this narrow strip of north sea coast is basking in heatwaves and storms ...here we have a sort of steamy fog - chill and sweaty that has been lying to some degree or other for 4 or 5 days ...In paying attention I have discovered that some of the struggle I am having is related to feeling that the weather is somehow a comment on me, as if better people are luckier in terms of weather (and no I haven't been drinking!! ...yet). It's only when I articulate these sorts of thoughts to myself that I really notice how bonkers I can be ...more grist for the meditation and for my therapist I guess ...
Thinking of you all in your different places and holding you in my thoughts ...
Brenda, ditto on midwives. Like hospice people -- being on either of the ends of life a lot can't help but make you aware of how mysteriously we come and go.
Barbara, re anger, I think it's hopeless to talk about it without breaking it down into smaller parts. There are many phases and components of anger. Some of them are precious, and you'd be an idiot to throw them away. Some are just plain poisonous, to us and everyone around us, and the sooner we're done with them the better.
Eastern "psychology" breaks these things down very elaborately and makes it easy to talk about them. Western psychology seems to me very crude, still (of course I'm twenty-five years out of date) -- pretty clueless about the fine machinery of things like anger or grief. Treats them as single huge lumps -- the perception, the physical reactions in response to that, the ideation in response to both, the spin of imputations and fantasies that arise in response to the ideation, and the actions of body and speech in response to the imputations and fantasies -- it's all one big thing, to Westerners. And so they say things like anger's good, or anger's bad, which seem equally true & false & useless statements, to me :-)
Hmm. My comment saying I'll hold Liz in my practice disappeared? Anyway, I will.
Sorry I've fallen down with the monthly sits -- my life is a bit disordered these days, & I'm dropping some of the balls I'm supposed to keep in the air :-) I'd vote for just waiting for the 100th day sit, at this point.
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