hi everyone. I've been a bit all over the place and covered in lime and hemp..firstly Beth, you are so much in my thoughts. You sound so wise and loving I can only wish we could learn to deal with death with such compassion. I for one am very happy if you need or want to express any of your feelings about what is happening as it has here. I feel like it is something we need to learn so much more about, and I think all of us here would support you.
It's nice to hear of peopmle's going in outside springtime adventures. I love the sound of your rock Lorraine, and I feel similarly about my chair in the vines which right now is like being in a field of emerald fairy lights. You are right about the coming bugs though! NOT reaching to swat them is a meditation in itself.
I am in a tiny hotel room in Cologne for the week. NOt quite the same but I sat. I am not managing absolutely every day but I feel I have got over the hurdle and you guys always help me come back to the desire to do so. sat thismorning with a view of a concrete building and the sound of traffic. Made me so grateful for what I have!
Like Ruth, I have not been managing to sit absolutely every day, but I do keep coming back to it, which I am trying to convince myself to accept as a small sign of progress in itself. This little community makes all the difference.
This morning I woke far too early and started to feel anxious and grumpy... and then remembered. Oh yes, I can breathe. So I did. And was able to cut short at least some of the anxious thoughts and, eventually, fell back asleep.
Ruth, I hope your week goes well. It must be quite frustrating being away from home just now.
MB, may your thoughts grow less anxious - if we could give you half the gentle, peaceful pleasure your poems give...
Brenda, I hope you'll stick around (which doesn't mean you have to comment and share so generously unless you want to). I hope I haven't been coming across as doctrinaire. In truth, I'm as averse to accepting labels and traditions as you are, I think - I experience this in just about equal measure as a very positive thing and partly as a very negative thing.
Mary, glad you have found a class you like the look of and I hope you enjoy it. I've just started going to classes on Saturday mornings at Croydon Buddhist Centre and very much appreciate both the encouragement of being with others and the different experience of meditating in a group. I think I'll try and keep going for a while, although, aargh, this belonging thing...
Sat last night, something less than half an hour. Light through the colored windows of the back bedroom, candle flickering, dust motes, brass handles of the dresser, bare floor.
From the moment I took out a handkerchief to dust the shrine, I felt right, felt that I was doing exactly what I should be doing, as I should be doing it. The relief of experiencing that inidcates how seldom I feel right in the world.
It still surprises me, that I so often resist meditation, like a toddler resisting going to bed. Too tired to rest.
I'm still busy with end-term grading, but I took time for a woods-walk in the rain today. I'm looking forward to having my grading done sometime next week so I can get back to "real" sitting rather than the little bits & pieces I've been snatching here & there.
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hi everyone. I've been a bit all over the place and covered in lime and hemp..firstly Beth, you are so much in my thoughts. You sound so wise and loving I can only wish we could learn to deal with death with such compassion. I for one am very happy if you need or want to express any of your feelings about what is happening as it has here. I feel like it is something we need to learn so much more about, and I think all of us here would support you.
It's nice to hear of peopmle's going in outside springtime adventures. I love the sound of your rock Lorraine, and I feel similarly about my chair in the vines which right now is like being in a field of emerald fairy lights. You are right about the coming bugs though! NOT reaching to swat them is a meditation in itself.
I am in a tiny hotel room in Cologne for the week. NOt quite the same but I sat. I am not managing absolutely every day but I feel I have got over the hurdle and you guys always help me come back to the desire to do so. sat thismorning with a view of a concrete building and the sound of traffic. Made me so grateful for what I have!
Like Ruth, I have not been managing to sit absolutely every day, but I do keep coming back to it, which I am trying to convince myself to accept as a small sign of progress in itself. This little community makes all the difference.
This morning I woke far too early and started to feel anxious and grumpy... and then remembered. Oh yes, I can breathe. So I did. And was able to cut short at least some of the anxious thoughts and, eventually, fell back asleep.
Ruth, I hope your week goes well. It must be quite frustrating being away from home just now.
MB, may your thoughts grow less anxious - if we could give you half the gentle, peaceful pleasure your poems give...
Brenda, I hope you'll stick around (which doesn't mean you have to comment and share so generously unless you want to). I hope I haven't been coming across as doctrinaire. In truth, I'm as averse to accepting labels and traditions as you are, I think - I experience this in just about equal measure as a very positive thing and partly as a very negative thing.
Mary, glad you have found a class you like the look of and I hope you enjoy it. I've just started going to classes on Saturday mornings at Croydon Buddhist Centre and very much appreciate both the encouragement of being with others and the different experience of meditating in a group. I think I'll try and keep going for a while, although, aargh, this belonging thing...
Sat last night, something less than half an hour. Light through the colored windows of the back bedroom, candle flickering, dust motes, brass handles of the dresser, bare floor.
From the moment I took out a handkerchief to dust the shrine, I felt right, felt that I was doing exactly what I should be doing, as I should be doing it. The relief of experiencing that inidcates how seldom I feel right in the world.
It still surprises me, that I so often resist meditation, like a toddler resisting going to bed. Too tired to rest.
Hey, everyone...just a quick comment.
I'm still busy with end-term grading, but I took time for a woods-walk in the rain today. I'm looking forward to having my grading done sometime next week so I can get back to "real" sitting rather than the little bits & pieces I've been snatching here & there.
But it all counts, and it's all good!
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