Love to all of you. Beth and Ruth, thinking of you lots. I miss you when I can't be here.
Please think of me in your meditation, and my boss Roger who died on Sunday and his wife and children, Jennifer, Daniel, Elizabeth and William, and grandchildren. As good a man as I have ever met. Everyone loved him. I've never seen so many grown people crying. It's hard. I'm glad of meditation.
Beth, he nearly died a year or so ago from a ruptured bowel, and again some months later from an operation to repair it. But had recovered very, very well. He had surgery last week to do a final repair. There was some risk. But I spoke to him on Thursday after his operation on Wednesday, and he was out of bed and seeming on the way to recovery. So we all stopped worrying quite so much. Then over the weekend he had a massive heart attack.
Jean, I read your post before I sat today and thought of you a great deal.
It's hard to lose anybody, but the relationships we form with people we collaborate with can be really quite amazing. Good bosses help us believe in ourselves, give us great gifts in encouraging us to grow in ways we never imagined. I'm sorry you and others who loved him are in this pain.
I'm glad you're glad of meditation. Your ability to be still with your own feelings about it will no doubt be of huge benefit to those around you who are also grieving but unable to center themselves.
Thinking of you, and others here who are fragile today.
((((Jean)))) Good boss equals good teacher. Thank God he will live on in you and all those who were touched by him in their work and lives. I am certainly thinking of you.
Wow you guys are amazing! thank you for all your support and clarity. I am just about to do the second concert and will now sit with the aspiration that she may be free from suffering without feeling that I have to love her or respect her. Thank you all for this gift. Why do I forget these things when I most need them?
so just sat with all your help and it was wonderful. I imagined a connection of an ocean between her and me - her outbreath being my inbreath etc, and while I was meditatin on her release from suffering, I suddenly was overwhelmed with a desire for to her have the incredible privelege of working with the sorts of musicians who have given me spiritual/musical instead of ego/musical guidance and who have made me the musician I am. I then extended the meditation to include the other person who gets on my tits and whose abrasive voice I could hear in the lobby. I'll keep youo posted! perhaps she might even get a kiss.
(((Jean))) I'm so sorry to hear this. That must be very difficult indeed. Of course, I'll be thinking of you and of them.
I'm reading about all your various situations with much compassion but not quite up to commenting much these days. Still in the process of settling back in/down, I guess! Still struggling to sit still. My love to you all.
I am thwacked after an intense day of moving yesterday with two brothers, a daughter and a son who perhaps was so overheated he threw up and was unable to go home afterwards but slept in my little futon bed while I applied wet washcloths to his forehead.
I was revved though, everything that I thought was lost wasn't. It's all either here (we squeeze sideways, climb over boxes to move) or in a storage unit packed to the rafters.
Shower, clearing a space on the floor for a piece of foam, trying to sleep. Couldn't. Nor the night before. So meditated. Took about 30 minutes to get quietened enough to sleep. Grateful for the few hours I got each night!
Covered in bruises & there isn't a part of my body that doesn't ache, and my hands especially are sore, red, even a bruise that's swelling there.
But it's good. All good. Relief. Everything's safe. Money enough to pay for the tiny apt, the storage. Relief. Lots of little ecstasies at finding long lost things we'd forgotten about, or refinding something we'd missed a lot - like my daughter reuniting with her boom box!
Condolences Jean, good people who are in leadership positions are hard to come by, and you were blessed. Prayers for his family too...
Ruth, each time you surmount a clash or difficulty does the music radiate that? It is such a journey, a concert. Thinking of you...
Beth, hugs...
Stray! Wonderful to see you here, and your meditation place, by your dog, yes, beautiful...
Hello to all, and extra hugs to Jean & Ruth. Jean, as much as it's draining, I'm sure, to deal with so many grieving people, I hope there's some comfort in the knowledge that you're not alone in your loss *and* that Roger obviously had a widespread positive impact to have moved so many people.
And Ruth, I'm hoping you're able to keep clear-minded even when your nemesis "gets on your tits"! :-)
Ruth, you always make me laugh. may that sense of humor and love of the absurd never desert you!
Jean, thinking of you tonight as I prepare for bed. Do take care of yourself and don't feel you have to be a rock for everyone else.
Brenda, what a day you've had! I'm so glad you finally have your stuff, and sorry it was such a physical and emotional ordeal. Wishing you sleep and relaxation.
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Love to all of you. Beth and Ruth, thinking of you lots. I miss you when I can't be here.
Please think of me in your meditation, and my boss Roger who died on Sunday and his wife and children, Jennifer, Daniel, Elizabeth and William, and grandchildren. As good a man as I have ever met. Everyone loved him. I've never seen so many grown people crying. It's hard. I'm glad of meditation.
Was his death sudden and unexpected, Jean? My thoughts and prayers are with you and his family.
Beth, he nearly died a year or so ago from a ruptured bowel, and again some months later from an operation to repair it. But had recovered very, very well. He had surgery last week to do a final repair. There was some risk. But I spoke to him on Thursday after his operation on Wednesday, and he was out of bed and seeming on the way to recovery. So we all stopped worrying quite so much. Then over the weekend he had a massive heart attack.
Oh, Jean. Hugs. So sorry. Thinking of you and of them. Yes, of course I'll hold you all in my practice.
Jean, I read your post before I sat today and thought of you a great deal.
It's hard to lose anybody, but the relationships we form with people we collaborate with can be really quite amazing. Good bosses help us believe in ourselves, give us great gifts in encouraging us to grow in ways we never imagined. I'm sorry you and others who loved him are in this pain.
I'm glad you're glad of meditation. Your ability to be still with your own feelings about it will no doubt be of huge benefit to those around you who are also grieving but unable to center themselves.
Thinking of you, and others here who are fragile today.
xx
((((Jean))))
Good boss equals good teacher. Thank God he will live on in you and all those who were touched by him in their work and lives. I am certainly thinking of you.
Wow you guys are amazing! thank you for all your support and clarity. I am just about to do the second concert and will now sit with the aspiration that she may be free from suffering without feeling that I have to love her or respect her. Thank you all for this gift. Why do I forget these things when I most need them?
xxx
so just sat with all your help and it was wonderful. I imagined a connection of an ocean between her and me - her outbreath being my inbreath etc, and while I was meditatin on her release from suffering, I suddenly was overwhelmed with a desire for to her have the incredible privelege of working with the sorts of musicians who have given me spiritual/musical instead of ego/musical guidance and who have made me the musician I am. I then extended the meditation to include the other person who gets on my tits and whose abrasive voice I could hear in the lobby. I'll keep youo posted! perhaps she might even get a kiss.
I love the lofty sentiments combined with 'gets on my tits', Ruth :-)
Stray, hello, a belated welcome from me. I'll be round to visit your blog.
(((Jean)))
I'm so sorry to hear this. That must be very difficult indeed. Of course, I'll be thinking of you and of them.
I'm reading about all your various situations with much compassion but not quite up to commenting much these days. Still in the process of settling back in/down, I guess! Still struggling to sit still. My love to you all.
I am thwacked after an intense day of moving yesterday with two brothers, a daughter and a son who perhaps was so overheated he threw up and was unable to go home afterwards but slept in my little futon bed while I applied wet washcloths to his forehead.
I was revved though, everything that I thought was lost wasn't. It's all either here (we squeeze sideways, climb over boxes to move) or in a storage unit packed to the rafters.
Shower, clearing a space on the floor for a piece of foam, trying to sleep. Couldn't. Nor the night before. So meditated. Took about 30 minutes to get quietened enough to sleep. Grateful for the few hours I got each night!
Covered in bruises & there isn't a part of my body that doesn't ache, and my hands especially are sore, red, even a bruise that's swelling there.
But it's good. All good. Relief. Everything's safe. Money enough to pay for the tiny apt, the storage. Relief. Lots of little ecstasies at finding long lost things we'd forgotten about, or refinding something we'd missed a lot - like my daughter reuniting with her boom box!
Condolences Jean, good people who are in leadership positions are hard to come by, and you were blessed. Prayers for his family too...
Ruth, each time you surmount a clash or difficulty does the music radiate that? It is such a journey, a concert. Thinking of you...
Beth, hugs...
Stray! Wonderful to see you here, and your meditation place, by your dog, yes, beautiful...
This is a wonderful group, isn't it?
Love to all-
Hello to all, and extra hugs to Jean & Ruth. Jean, as much as it's draining, I'm sure, to deal with so many grieving people, I hope there's some comfort in the knowledge that you're not alone in your loss *and* that Roger obviously had a widespread positive impact to have moved so many people.
And Ruth, I'm hoping you're able to keep clear-minded even when your nemesis "gets on your tits"! :-)
Ruth, you always make me laugh. may that sense of humor and love of the absurd never desert you!
Jean, thinking of you tonight as I prepare for bed. Do take care of yourself and don't feel you have to be a rock for everyone else.
Brenda, what a day you've had! I'm so glad you finally have your stuff, and sorry it was such a physical and emotional ordeal. Wishing you sleep and relaxation.
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