sat for 10 minutes before going off again on tour.
managed to observe how easily and willingly I feed my victim; how there is actually a place that wants not to be peaceful or abundant; a real woe is me place. BIG family trait which it is interesting to look at in this way, so thankyou to the car for bringing me this opportunity.(????!!!, well, maybe!)
now I have to go downstairs and keep a sense of it around j for whom it has brought up lots of other things!
phew.
hope the week goes well, loraine and congrats on completing your project dale. Are you going to tell us a little about it?
Hi Nicole - no guilt in being blogless - reminds me a little of meeting the occassional non-writing person at a poetry reading, and all they're there for is to listen and enjoy, feels like a kind of luxury (haven't explained that very well).
Grrr how ANNOYING for you Ruth, I'm sure being peed off is allowed as part of being a proper whatever-it-is-we're-trying-to-be isn't it? Can empathise with what you said too - that 'told you so' kind of feeling you get when a bit of you that's convinced of something gets more evidence - hard to challenge those bits, but sounds like it's been useful for you to become aware. Didn't explain that very well either...
Warm wishes to all, both writing or just listening.
Ruth, what a bummer about your car and your birthday trip - hope you can still do something lovely.
Udge, great to see you back, was wondering how you were.
Warmest best wishes to everyone starting new tours, semesters etc.
Grim sit this morning - very tired and mind very cloudy and sorry for itself. But I sat there for 20 minutes returning and returning to the breath and endeavouring to generate feelings of kindness and non-blaming towards self.
The cat has got my tongue (fingers?) for all sorts of reasons at the moment, but I have been - mutely - following the comments here and continuing to do short sits each morning. And that is really good.
Good morning all - best wishes to you, Ruth, on keeping a happy peaceful center. I know the trait you're talking about! And Mary, how good to hear from you.
I'm off to the hospital for those tests in another hour, and wanted to report that I have actually felt quite calm the last few days. I think all this really does make a big difference - the intention, the sitting, and our virtual "sangha" here. Thank you for sending me some good vibes today. It's wonderful to feel the support of others, and makes me anxious to return it.
Up very early this morning to make preparations for a few days away, escaping the clocks and complications of city life, to spend some time in the small towns and rural areas of British Columbia … traveling the “blue highways” as described by William Least Heat Moon – “on the old highway maps of America, the main routes were red and the back roads are blue”, I’ll stay away from any place that has shopping malls or parking meters … I’ll listen to people I find in coffee shops and at work, at home and in the hills
The wonder of sitting at this early hour with only the light of a candle and the scent of incense … this cushion is my true home. Thanks to Dale for his post a few days ago about meditating first thing in the morning “before the world gets hold of you.”
I’m taking Thomas Merton’s Asian Journal to re-read on the ferry to the mainland, my sketchbook and my journal
Jean – the password protected album is empty just now. I set this up at the beginning of the month to hold some pages of scratches, scribblings, and sketches from my 100 Days Journal. They have yet to be scanned and formatted for uploading to PictureTrail.
hey Nichole – I also am blogless and intend to remain so … have never thought of myself as “just a listener”…. hmmmm, something else to ponder while I’m on the road.
What a wonderful place this is, with such nice people. I am touched by your comments, thank you all very much. My best wishes to all, especially Beth for the tests. FIngers crossed.
Ruth, I'm sorry to hear about the car woes. I'm nursing along a '93 Subaru with 240,000 miles, hoping she'll get through the winter before I have to face the prospect of a car payment, so my blood runs cold at the thought of Car Trouble.
Welcome back, Udge! And happy "hospitality hiatus, Jude!
Beth, I hope the tests went well.
And good wishes/apologies to anyone whose travels & travails I'm overlooking...
After the excitement (and nervous exhaustion) of yesterday's first day back to teaching, I've had a lazy & desultory day today, an at-home day. But I *finally* sat for 20 minutes after dinner, so the day wasn't entirely wasted.
Many thanks for the good wishes. I'm back in one rather ragged piece after a hellish day which started with a city paralyzed by rain on top of glare ice; our bus couldn't get anywhere near the hospital and we had to climb a long icy hill with water from a broken main pouring down it - people were falling, cars crahing, it was terrible. Then wait wait wait, then two very unpleasant tests separated by five hours; we got back home at 5:30 and by then I had had nothing to eat for 48 hours. I tried hard to make it all into a spiritual fast, which helped. No results yet, so I have to just sit with it, as I had ample opportunity to do today. I appreciate the support here very much - please don't mention the above concerns on my blog though.
Nicole/Janice - apologies - I didn't mean to imply you were just listening at all - the comment at the bottom of what I wrote was actually referring to the people who might be reading this blog and not commenting (that they are just listening here, at the moment), and not related to the earlier bit about poetry readings. I certainly don't see your participation as that, it feels like a place where we're all listening and speaking and learning and giving...
To steal Lorianne's line: Good morning, everybody. This is actually Day 19; I'm usually up early (GMT-1) and would be glad to help posting the days - if that isn't treading on toes or revealing non-Buddha mind :-)
I wish everyone is health and contentment.
Just sat a very unsatisfactory ten minutes, I could hardly keep my mind still for five seconds before it started charging off at tangents. I seem to be calmer in the evenings, but feel somehow that I would rather sit early in the day. I'll keep working on this.
I find random images - disconnected memories - coming to mind while I sit: looking out the window of the 54a bus at a sparrow on a snowbank, when I was maybe 12; pelicans on the Qu'Appelle river; a tree in the Boboli Gardens. Odd.
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sat for 10 minutes before going off again on tour.
managed to observe how easily and willingly I feed my victim; how there is actually a place that wants not to be peaceful or abundant; a real woe is me place. BIG family trait which it is interesting to look at in this way, so thankyou to the car for bringing me this opportunity.(????!!!, well, maybe!)
now I have to go downstairs and keep a sense of it around j for whom it has brought up lots of other things!
phew.
hope the week goes well, loraine and congrats on completing your project dale. Are you going to tell us a little about it?
Hi Nicole - no guilt in being blogless - reminds me a little of meeting the occassional non-writing person at a poetry reading, and all they're there for is to listen and enjoy, feels like a kind of luxury (haven't explained that very well).
Grrr how ANNOYING for you Ruth, I'm sure being peed off is allowed as part of being a proper whatever-it-is-we're-trying-to-be isn't it? Can empathise with what you said too - that 'told you so' kind of feeling you get when a bit of you that's convinced of something gets more evidence - hard to challenge those bits, but sounds like it's been useful for you to become aware. Didn't explain that very well either...
Warm wishes to all, both writing or just listening.
Ruth, what a bummer about your car and your birthday trip - hope you can still do something lovely.
Udge, great to see you back, was wondering how you were.
Warmest best wishes to everyone starting new tours, semesters etc.
Grim sit this morning - very tired and mind very cloudy and sorry for itself. But I sat there for 20 minutes returning and returning to the breath and endeavouring to generate feelings of kindness and non-blaming towards self.
Hello all
The cat has got my tongue (fingers?) for all sorts of reasons at the moment, but I have been - mutely - following the comments here and continuing to do short sits each morning. And that is really good.
Good morning all - best wishes to you, Ruth, on keeping a happy peaceful center. I know the trait you're talking about! And Mary, how good to hear from you.
I'm off to the hospital for those tests in another hour, and wanted to report that I have actually felt quite calm the last few days. I think all this really does make a big difference - the intention, the sitting, and our virtual "sangha" here. Thank you for sending me some good vibes today. It's wonderful to feel the support of others, and makes me anxious to return it.
Beth, I'm reading you just a few minutes after you posted and will be holding you close to me for the next few hours. Soon be over!
Jude, you'll be missed. Enjoy, and come back soon.
Ruth, I'm sorry the celebratory trip was botched and that you now have worries bout the car. Hope it will be all resolved soon.
Udge, welcome back.
((Jean)) (I know about grim sits.)
Mary, it's always good to hear from you. I've been thinking of you a lot this week.
Beth, I'm glad that this all does make a difference for you during your challenges. Tests, yuck. I'll be thinking of you.
Jude, have a wonderful visit with your guests!
The trouble with coming in late is also the joy of coming in late - reading so many comments!
Up very early this morning to make preparations for a few days away, escaping the clocks and complications of city life, to spend some time in the small towns and rural areas of British Columbia … traveling the “blue highways” as described by William Least Heat Moon – “on the old highway maps of America, the main routes were red and the back roads are blue”, I’ll stay away from any place that has shopping malls or parking meters … I’ll listen to people I find in coffee shops and at work, at home and in the hills
The wonder of sitting at this early hour with only the light of a candle and the scent of incense … this cushion is my true home. Thanks to Dale for his post a few days ago about meditating first thing in the morning “before the world gets hold of you.”
I’m taking Thomas Merton’s Asian Journal to re-read on the ferry to the mainland, my sketchbook and my journal
Jean – the password protected album is empty just now. I set this up at the beginning of the month to hold some pages of scratches, scribblings, and sketches from my 100 Days Journal. They have yet to be scanned and formatted for uploading to PictureTrail.
hey Nichole – I also am blogless and intend to remain so … have never thought of myself as “just a listener”…. hmmmm, something else to ponder while I’m on the road.
What a wonderful place this is, with such nice people. I am touched by your comments, thank you all very much. My best wishes to all, especially Beth for the tests. FIngers crossed.
Hello, everyone!
Ruth, I'm sorry to hear about the car woes. I'm nursing along a '93 Subaru with 240,000 miles, hoping she'll get through the winter before I have to face the prospect of a car payment, so my blood runs cold at the thought of Car Trouble.
Welcome back, Udge! And happy "hospitality hiatus, Jude!
Beth, I hope the tests went well.
And good wishes/apologies to anyone whose travels & travails I'm overlooking...
After the excitement (and nervous exhaustion) of yesterday's first day back to teaching, I've had a lazy & desultory day today, an at-home day. But I *finally* sat for 20 minutes after dinner, so the day wasn't entirely wasted.
Warm wishes to all...
Many thanks for the good wishes. I'm back in one rather ragged piece after a hellish day which started with a city paralyzed by rain on top of glare ice; our bus couldn't get anywhere near the hospital and we had to climb a long icy hill with water from a broken main pouring down it - people were falling, cars crahing, it was terrible. Then wait wait wait, then two very unpleasant tests separated by five hours; we got back home at 5:30 and by then I had had nothing to eat for 48 hours. I tried hard to make it all into a spiritual fast, which helped. No results yet, so I have to just sit with it, as I had ample opportunity to do today. I appreciate the support here very much - please don't mention the above concerns on my blog though.
Oh, I just came from sending you email, and here you are, Beth! Lots of love to you -- that sounds perfectly awful. When do you get results back?
{{{Beth}}}
Yikes, Beth: you *did* have a hellish day! Hugs & healing vibes...
A Gatha for Beth
Learning of my friend’s condition
I vow with all beings
To hold her in my hands and heart
In the still silence of the evening
Nicole/Janice - apologies - I didn't mean to imply you were just listening at all - the comment at the bottom of what I wrote was actually referring to the people who might be reading this blog and not commenting (that they are just listening here, at the moment), and not related to the earlier bit about poetry readings. I certainly don't see your participation as that, it feels like a place where we're all listening and speaking and learning and giving...
Hope today is a better day, Beth.
To steal Lorianne's line: Good morning, everybody. This is actually Day 19; I'm usually up early (GMT-1) and would be glad to help posting the days - if that isn't treading on toes or revealing non-Buddha mind :-)
I wish everyone is health and contentment.
Just sat a very unsatisfactory ten minutes, I could hardly keep my mind still for five seconds before it started charging off at tangents. I seem to be calmer in the evenings, but feel somehow that I would rather sit early in the day. I'll keep working on this.
I find random images - disconnected memories - coming to mind while I sit: looking out the window of the 54a bus at a sparrow on a snowbank, when I was maybe 12; pelicans on the Qu'Appelle river; a tree in the Boboli Gardens. Odd.
Trees, rivers, pelicans... that doesn't sound unsatisfactory to me, but beautiful.
Sounds like a good idea for Udge to have posting access too, since he gets up early and is on the earliest time zone. Thanks for offering!
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