Thank you for the reminder about walking meditation - it has always been good for me but doesn't work in my city life - here, yesterday, in Vermont it got me over a dry pale where it has been very hard to sit at all.
I laughed about the comment yesterday about the hangover - I've been meaning to write here since one day last week: "I suppose working your tail off all day, drinking a martini, and then sitting in a semi-stupor on the couch doesn't count, right?"
You all make me smile and feel more spacious and less constricted in tiredness and loneliness just for the coming here. Thanks.
For the record, I too had a lousy hangover this morning from drinking champagne at friend's retirement party yesterday, and have not yet managed to meditate. I will try, before I go to bed. But reading Ruth's descriptions of walking meditation, I wished I'd done that when I was walking in the woods today, and I will give it a go. Have been feeling sad that autumn's glory is passing without me giving it much attention.
I sat for a lovely 30 minutes yesterday morning, feeling grateful for more time and that I can hope to have a bit more time and space in the coming weeks than of late. But despite that, have not done it today. As Dale remarked, every day is so different and unpredictable.
Good to read all the above. Ruth's remark yesterday about "leaning into" the structure of this blog as a support for meditation rings true for me, it is just what I have been doing. Very jumpy mind in my session this morning, but tried to relax into the jumpiness rather than fight it.
Jean - hugs, hope things look better in the morning.
Jean, please know that I think of you - and the others here - every time I sit down in the quiet. You're by yourself, but honestly, those of us who are coupled-up have our own loneliness to confront, and it's the company of fellow travelers that often makes the difference at those times.
Beth, the feeling of loneliness, or separateness, that comes with the constriction of overactivity, overtiredness, has little to do with who's actually around, I think, and more to do with lack of energy to connect. And meditation is, for me, the surest way back to connection.
thanks for all your support, especially about the hangover because I am so full of self judgement I do think you all drink sips of green tea, and that's pretty hard to find in the cotes du rhone!
It has been a very strong mistral wind today and of course the solar eclipse - very strange world outside so I sat again inside. I love to think of sitting by the sea and my breath becoming the wave coming in and flowing out. I find it helpful in not controlling the timing of the inhalation. However I had to confront the fact that i was trying to have grand beautiful waves/breaths and, in the brief glimpses of simply observing the breath, I found it was actually quite small and shallow. Then of course I had all sorts of feelings of judgement about that!
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Sat down last night in a grumpy and rather mutinous mood to sit for ten minutes, just because I've committed to it.
Twenty minutes of wonderful clarity, every sight sound and sensation extraordinarily pleasurable.
I think I need to write 500 times on the blackboard, "I do not know what it's going to be like beforehand."
Thank you for the reminder about walking meditation - it has always been good for me but doesn't work in my city life - here, yesterday, in Vermont it got me over a dry pale where it has been very hard to sit at all.
I laughed about the comment yesterday about the hangover - I've been meaning to write here since one day last week: "I suppose working your tail off all day, drinking a martini, and then sitting in a semi-stupor on the couch doesn't count, right?"
You all make me smile and feel more spacious and less constricted in tiredness and loneliness just for the coming here. Thanks.
For the record, I too had a lousy hangover this morning from drinking champagne at friend's retirement party yesterday, and have not yet managed to meditate. I will try, before I go to bed. But reading Ruth's descriptions of walking meditation, I wished I'd done that when I was walking in the woods today, and I will give it a go. Have been feeling sad that autumn's glory is passing without me giving it much attention.
I sat for a lovely 30 minutes yesterday morning, feeling grateful for more time and that I can hope to have a bit more time and space in the coming weeks than of late. But despite that, have not done it today. As Dale remarked, every day is so different and unpredictable.
Good to read all the above. Ruth's remark yesterday about "leaning into" the structure of this blog as a support for meditation rings true for me, it is just what I have been doing. Very jumpy mind in my session this morning, but tried to relax into the jumpiness rather than fight it.
Jean - hugs, hope things look better in the morning.
Jean, please know that I think of you - and the others here - every time I sit down in the quiet. You're by yourself, but honestly, those of us who are coupled-up have our own loneliness to confront, and it's the company of fellow travelers that often makes the difference at those times.
Beth, the feeling of loneliness, or separateness, that comes with the constriction of overactivity, overtiredness, has little to do with who's actually around, I think, and more to do with lack of energy to connect. And meditation is, for me, the surest way back to connection.
thanks for all your support, especially about the hangover because I am so full of self judgement I do think you all drink sips of green tea, and that's pretty hard to find in the cotes du rhone!
It has been a very strong mistral wind today and of course the solar eclipse - very strange world outside so I sat again inside. I love to think of sitting by the sea and my breath becoming the wave coming in and flowing out. I find it helpful in not controlling the timing of the inhalation. However I had to confront the fact that i was trying to have grand beautiful waves/breaths and, in the brief glimpses of simply observing the breath, I found it was actually quite small and shallow. Then of course I had all sorts of feelings of judgement about that!
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