Sat this morning between 5-10 minutes, a shorter time than I originally intended. Not because I was in a hurry but because I had misread the clock I occasionally glance at. I really do need a non-strident timer.
Having said that, the meditation time actually did feel longer ....
I enjoy weekend morning meditation, my mind have the anxiety of work issues to contend with. If feels "safer" to really go deep.
This morning I drove down to the Cambridge Zen Center to join their mid-morning long sitting (4 half-hour meditation sessions with walking & koan interviews). It's been a while since I've been to formal practice, and man, it felt good to be back.
We'll see if this gives my at-home practice a much-needed kick in the pants.
Been off-line all weekend, but not off-cushion. On Friday evening I went to the meditation hour at Samye Dzong Tibetan buddhist centre again. I visualised all of you seated around me in the meditation hall, and it was a lovely feeling. After that, my mind chuntered vaguely and repetitively for the whole hour, replaying incidents and conversations of the day, and my body hurt all over and wanted to lie down. Ugh! But afterwards I went home and put poor body to bed and it passed out and slept for about 10 hours - not at all what it usually does after a hard week at work. Been tired all weekend, but sat several times for 10 - 20 minutes. Feeling: thank you, universe, for bringing me meditation. It has never occurred to me for a moment to think I was going to get enlightened, but a growing glimpse of the possibility of change - long after I had passed the age when I thought I was going to grow up, sort myself out etc one day, as you do when young - yes, meditation gives me that glimpse, and is the only thing that ever has.
That's wonderful. That's how it feels to me, too -- an opening of possibilities that I had gradually, not very consciously, given up on over the years.
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Sat this morning between 5-10 minutes, a shorter time than I originally intended. Not because I was in a hurry but because I had misread the clock I occasionally glance at. I really do need a non-strident timer.
Having said that, the meditation time actually did feel longer ....
I enjoy weekend morning meditation, my mind have the anxiety of work issues to contend with. If feels "safer" to really go deep.
oops, I meant "my mind does not have ...". Sorry!
This morning I drove down to the Cambridge Zen Center to join their mid-morning long sitting (4 half-hour meditation sessions with walking & koan interviews). It's been a while since I've been to formal practice, and man, it felt good to be back.
We'll see if this gives my at-home practice a much-needed kick in the pants.
Been off-line all weekend, but not off-cushion. On Friday evening I went to the meditation hour at Samye Dzong Tibetan buddhist centre again. I visualised all of you seated around me in the meditation hall, and it was a lovely feeling. After that, my mind chuntered vaguely and repetitively for the whole hour, replaying incidents and conversations of the day, and my body hurt all over and wanted to lie down. Ugh! But afterwards I went home and put poor body to bed and it passed out and slept for about 10 hours - not at all what it usually does after a hard week at work. Been tired all weekend, but sat several times for 10 - 20 minutes. Feeling: thank you, universe, for bringing me meditation. It has never occurred to me for a moment to think I was going to get enlightened, but a growing glimpse of the possibility of change - long after I had passed the age when I thought I was going to grow up, sort myself out etc one day, as you do when young - yes, meditation gives me that glimpse, and is the only thing that ever has.
{{{Jean}}}
That's wonderful. That's how it feels to me, too -- an opening of possibilities that I had gradually, not very consciously, given up on over the years.
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