Got up too late too sit this morning. I definitely will this evening, but, oh, I do miss it if I don't sit first thing - I want it to be every day, not every day except when I'm really tired and want an extra 20 minutes in bed. Lots of tedious and irritating things at work this morning (nothing serious) and I can definitely feel that I'm less steady, more easily knocked off balance, nudged into being grumpy, than I have been of late.
I've been lax, oh my! My usual sit time is about 15 minutes, because that's the 'minimum' time for my particular meditation. So when did it become programmed into me? I thought to add 5 min of loving-kindness to my daily meditation, to make 20 minutes, which is a better length of time. Has that happened? Uh uh. I sit in loving-kindness bliss, my heart like a rich red organ of loving perception, really blissed out, and notice 10 minutes have passed, so then I do my meditation, the one I've done for 11 years, and after 5 minutes, that's it. Programmed. It's still 15 minutes a day, but the one meditation is an overflowing chalice of love, and an utterly beautiful 10 minutes, the other, much harder work. Lax, oh yes, and I've not managed to stretch my linear time envelope...
Is it the pleasure principle that's guiding here-? The loving-kindness meditation is most pleasurable: I just keep falling in love with everyone I know and the whole world over and over again.
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Got up too late too sit this morning. I definitely will this evening, but, oh, I do miss it if I don't sit first thing - I want it to be every day, not every day except when I'm really tired and want an extra 20 minutes in bed. Lots of tedious and irritating things at work this morning (nothing serious) and I can definitely feel that I'm less steady, more easily knocked off balance, nudged into being grumpy, than I have been of late.
Too late too spell too...
I've been lax, oh my! My usual sit time is about 15 minutes, because that's the 'minimum' time for my particular meditation. So when did it become programmed into me? I thought to add 5 min of loving-kindness to my daily meditation, to make 20 minutes, which is a better length of time. Has that happened? Uh uh. I sit in loving-kindness bliss, my heart like a rich red organ of loving perception, really blissed out, and notice 10 minutes have passed, so then I do my meditation, the one I've done for 11 years, and after 5 minutes, that's it. Programmed. It's still 15 minutes a day, but the one meditation is an overflowing chalice of love, and an utterly beautiful 10 minutes, the other, much harder work. Lax, oh yes, and I've not managed to stretch my linear time envelope...
Is it the pleasure principle that's guiding here-? The loving-kindness meditation is most pleasurable: I just keep falling in love with everyone I know and the whole world over and over again.
:)
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