no, udge, not your fault! my mishap with disappearing wedensday, and my friends, had nothing to do with your post or each other which was why i wondered if it was to do with the eclipse; that infact in so many places there was no day....
Ruth, I screwed up the counting yesterday, today is "89". Could you rename this post please (it seems we can't edit each others' posts, else I'd have done it for you).
How delicious, all this number confusion - feels like a fun, and needed, shake-up!
Lorianne, hope you feel better soon. Not having a voice is really weird and upsetting, I find - I supppose all the symbolic connotations of that phrase come into play subconsciously.
Ruth, warmest wishes to you and Julian as you put your minds and hearts to the adoption issue.
I was awake in the night last night, sat and meditated in the quiet for a long time and felt so grateful to be sitting instead of miserably tossing and turning. Not that I can always summon the energy to get up and sit when I can't sleep, but when I do I am so glad.
Numbers fun! Or is it eclipse confusion ...in any case a distraction from the constant rain and sliding about in mud (aka walking the dog)...thanks Udge for being human! And Jean for proving it is possible - sometimes - to give up the grip on misery to step aside into some measure of peace ...
Lorianne I hope you soon recover - there are some nasty yucky things going about over here too - sometimes it's hard to lie down to things when we should and I'm glad to hear you're managing that some.
Ruth - love to you and J as you consider a different kind of future, may it work out whatever you decide to do ...
And to all - still I am hanging on by fingertips but managing partly thanks to you and your words ...I try to remember to be easier on myself and at the same time to give these things the space they deserve and to remember that there are too many big, potentially life changing things going on (not necessarily pleasant ones either) and that maybe the best I can hope for just now is to ride it, and be glad when I can 'clean my teeth' in peace ...
Oh, I love that Udge renamed "yesterday" to 88.5. Maybe we could take a cue from that line from Spinal Tap ("My guitar goes to 11") and have a Hundred Day stint that goes to 101...
I'm feeling okay this morning, but my voice is still fried. It's not so much that I'm hoarse; instead, I have this deep, gravelly, raspy thing that doesn't sound like *me* coming out of my mouth. Today's teaching will be a challenge, but if I can get through *that*, I'll have the weekend to rest my voice some more.
I'm hoping to sit sometime this afternoon...I don't think I'll have a chance for anything more than a few mindful breaths before teaching this morning...
Ruth, I too managed to grab a bit of meditating time in the car outside the shops. Well, it was a foul day, rain and cold wind, so I let A. go to the shop and sat in the lovely warm car and thought of Dale's encouragment and launched into a dozen breaths. It was great!
Meditated at the end of the yoga class last night but it was a rather poor experience: the man on the mat next to me was breathing too heavily :-O
:-) I love the idea of having a 101 day "hundred days."
The Tibetan prostration practice consists of doing what they call "one hundred thousand" prostrations. But it turns out that when they count to "one hundred" by counting off 108 beads on a rosary (108 is a big number in Buddhism, I forget why.) Anyway, people have gotten to the triumphant end of their hundred thousand only to find that they still have weeks of prostrations in front of them. (There's yet a further complication that I don't remember right now -- the actual number really comes out to something like 112,000, I think.)
so glad people are managing to sit! I'm back to it too, not terribly consistently, but better than I had been.
Having a difficult day - feeling low and seeing parts of myself that I don't like .... restlessness, irritability. Have just finished a 10 minute additional meditation session, watching the breath, which I fitted in, feeling it was badly needed, and that has quietened things down a bit. Hopefully tonight's yoga class will help too.
Udge - 88.5 has been my favourite day so far ... Lorriane - keep looking after yourself.
tonight i sat meditating whilst my friend listened to jazz downstairs. oddly I put the music on for her knowing I was just about to meditate. Was that self sabotage or just a test? Luckily I coped pretty well, just hearing the sound, but was very glad when my hub came down and asked her to turn it down as I was meditating!!!!
ooh mary that stuff we see in ourselves! yuk! yet thank god for mirrors too....true ones.
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no, udge, not your fault! my mishap with disappearing wedensday, and my friends, had nothing to do with your post or each other which was why i wondered if it was to do with the eclipse; that infact in so many places there was no day....
Ruth, I screwed up the counting yesterday, today is "89". Could you rename this post please (it seems we can't edit each others' posts, else I'd have done it for you).
How delicious, all this number confusion - feels like a fun, and needed, shake-up!
Lorianne, hope you feel better soon. Not having a voice is really weird and upsetting, I find - I supppose all the symbolic connotations of that phrase come into play subconsciously.
Ruth, warmest wishes to you and Julian as you put your minds and hearts to the adoption issue.
I was awake in the night last night, sat and meditated in the quiet for a long time and felt so grateful to be sitting instead of miserably tossing and turning. Not that I can always summon the energy to get up and sit when I can't sleep, but when I do I am so glad.
Numbers fun! Or is it eclipse confusion ...in any case a distraction from the constant rain and sliding about in mud (aka walking the dog)...thanks Udge for being human! And Jean for proving it is possible - sometimes - to give up the grip on misery to step aside into some measure of peace ...
Lorianne I hope you soon recover - there are some nasty yucky things going about over here too - sometimes it's hard to lie down to things when we should and I'm glad to hear you're managing that some.
Ruth - love to you and J as you consider a different kind of future, may it work out whatever you decide to do ...
And to all - still I am hanging on by fingertips but managing partly thanks to you and your words ...I try to remember to be easier on myself and at the same time to give these things the space they deserve and to remember that there are too many big, potentially life changing things going on (not necessarily pleasant ones either) and that maybe the best I can hope for just now is to ride it, and be glad when I can 'clean my teeth' in peace ...
Oh, I love that Udge renamed "yesterday" to 88.5. Maybe we could take a cue from that line from Spinal Tap ("My guitar goes to 11") and have a Hundred Day stint that goes to 101...
I'm feeling okay this morning, but my voice is still fried. It's not so much that I'm hoarse; instead, I have this deep, gravelly, raspy thing that doesn't sound like *me* coming out of my mouth. Today's teaching will be a challenge, but if I can get through *that*, I'll have the weekend to rest my voice some more.
I'm hoping to sit sometime this afternoon...I don't think I'll have a chance for anything more than a few mindful breaths before teaching this morning...
Ruth, I too managed to grab a bit of meditating time in the car outside the shops. Well, it was a foul day, rain and cold wind, so I let A. go to the shop and sat in the lovely warm car and thought of Dale's encouragment and launched into a dozen breaths. It was great!
Meditated at the end of the yoga class last night but it was a rather poor experience: the man on the mat next to me was breathing too heavily :-O
:-) I love the idea of having a 101 day "hundred days."
The Tibetan prostration practice consists of doing what they call "one hundred thousand" prostrations. But it turns out that when they count to "one hundred" by counting off 108 beads on a rosary (108 is a big number in Buddhism, I forget why.) Anyway, people have gotten to the triumphant end of their hundred thousand only to find that they still have weeks of prostrations in front of them. (There's yet a further complication that I don't remember right now -- the actual number really comes out to something like 112,000, I think.)
so glad people are managing to sit! I'm back to it too, not terribly consistently, but better than I had been.
love to all of you --
Having a difficult day - feeling low and seeing parts of myself that I don't like .... restlessness, irritability. Have just finished a 10 minute additional meditation session, watching the breath, which I fitted in, feeling it was badly needed, and that has quietened things down a bit. Hopefully tonight's yoga class will help too.
Udge - 88.5 has been my favourite day so far ...
Lorriane - keep looking after yourself.
Good wishes to all.
Mary, lots of love headed out over the Canadian shield. ... ought to be about over Greenland now ... okay, should be showing up there any time --
xoxoxoxo
tonight i sat meditating whilst my friend listened to jazz downstairs. oddly I put the music on for her knowing I was just about to meditate. Was that self sabotage or just a test? Luckily I coped pretty well, just hearing the sound, but was very glad when my hub came down and asked her to turn it down as I was meditating!!!!
ooh mary that stuff we see in ourselves! yuk! yet thank god for mirrors too....true ones.
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